Let me start off by saying which was my truth I posted a few
weeks back. The truth was #4; I did
drive through the town of Fallujah while deployed to the Middle East in
2004. This happened in the very
beginning of my tour.
When asked the
question on how my semester is going I have to say, unexpectedly
difficult. The course isn’t hard when
one has the time to do all the work. I
don’t because of my full time job I presently have. See I work for the federal government and
presently we are in a “Sequestration”.
This has placed an added burden on me and the position I hold. I am now doing the work that once took three
people. I find myself doing and making
“PowerPoint” presentations for meetings and briefings. Since this is my career I have to except the
work and make it happen, my yearly review and bonuses hinge on my
performance.
The atmosphere at
school is great and it’s a welcome change from the daily norm I have at the
airport. The challenges I face are
starting to show and it is increasing on a weekly basis. Not being able to leave work on time has
affected my commute from Santa Barbara to Oxnard. Once I finally complete my daily assignments
I rush out of the airport and head back to the 805. The way things are going for me right now are
not good but I’m trying to find that balance between work and school.
My career is taking
all my focus away from school and with a five month old daughter at home
balance is rough. It’s going to be a
long road for me but I’ve almost going to have to realize that I might have to
take this class over again. The choice
isn’t mine but the struggle is weighing on my shoulders harder than I
imagined. No one plans on work consuming
ones daily life and that’s what is happening to me. I won’t quit but I will try my hardest and
someday in the near future all these struggles will be another distant memory
of hurdles that I accomplished.
